deleterious-effects:

“On one particular occasion, he saw a woman park her car and walk up to her door and fumble for her keys. He walked up behind her and struck her with a… a piece of wood he was carrying. And she fell down and began screaming, and he panicked and ran.
“What he had done terrified him. Purely terrified him. And the suicidal, uh, nature of that activity- the ugliness of it all- and, you know, he quickly sobered up, as it were”
-Ted Bundy speaking in third person, during a death row interview.