bundyness:

“All I knew was that I felt a bit different. My way to compensate for that was to say, ‘Well, I don’t go in for those things. I don’t like the drinking. I don’t care for this carrying on, the frivolity. I’m a serious student. I’m above all this.’ To some degree, that was my way of defending myself against something I didn’t want to admit I desired to be a part of.”

 “A lot of my pretensions about being a scholarly type, a person interested in serious studies, was really a defense mechanism. I was accused on a couple of occasions of being aloof, arrogant, and snobby. But it was just a defense mechanism to protect my somewhat introverted nature. I used that to compensate for my outright fear of socializing. Maybe, also, it was a way to protect myself, because I couldn’t achieve those kinds of social goals that I wanted.” 

 “My social life was a big zero. I spent a great deal of time with myself. It was lonely for me…I didn’t feel socially adept enough. I didn’t feel I knew how to function with those people. I felt terribly uncomfortable.” 

 — Ted Bundy